typing one handed for the second day in a row because baby is asleep on my chest. he can’t sleep unless he is propped up on his tummy as his gas seems so bad nothig works – put him in his crib, he arches his back, screams and tears up in pain. poor thing, it kills me to see him hurting.

i lost it a little earlier, someone in a comm was talking about their birth plan, and remembering our birth i just began to cry. everyone kept saying ‘difficult pregnancy, easy baby’…yet we’re dealing with jaundice, my milk supply not being enough, reflux, you name it. baby steps, baby steps. one foot in front of another. i can do this. we can do this.

it will be okay.